Secret Diaries of him part 5

As the days went on Zia and I got closer and closer. I realised we had much in common and really enjoyed each other’s company. We could talk about anything and everything. He struggled to find that with his wife.
He said Neema was suffering from depression and recently hadn’t been keeping too well. Some gyno problems that caused a lot of bleeding. (Which she mentioned too) his issue was their sex life was non existent.
She said the same thing. Even as going as far as saying they thought she had cancer. All she wanted was to be sure that Zia was happy and she didn’t mind a second wife. She said they had discussed it often and she didn’t have a problem because she knew he would be fair. She also said her only demand was that it be someone that she could get on with.
So in my head what’s starting is a realisation that if she’s talking about cancer etc and they’ve been discussing this for years then they truly must be serious about this because even he insisted she was being serious and he truly wanted this.
She would call all excited about looking at condos and apartments for me. I would gently say to her that there’s plenty of time I still have a few years of study but nothing deterred her.
The question I started asking myself was this possible? Could I move there to live with them? Could I be a second wife? The answer truly was no. I did like him but no I hadn’t fallen for him.
We had our moments where in texts or on the phone we would get carried away. We indulged in fantasies of Neema watching us while we made mad passionate love 🙈 Something about that really turned me 🙊 on and clearly him too. Sometimes I’d be really nasty to her in those fantasies and we loved it 😈
Anyways moving on (yes that’s enough for now) 😝
She on the other hand had her moments too. She would tell me about things he liked doing in bed and would say “don’t worry you won’t have any issues in that department” some will find this weird but the conversations just seemed so natural and an extension of everything else she would talk about.
One thing I should let you guys know they introduced me to their kids as their friend and very often they would come on the phone and say hi. Sometimes resulting in some nice chit chats. Their youngest daughter was a special needs child too. One of the reasons why she said she was accepting of a second wife rather than separating was due to her needs and the help they needed looking her.
So as you can see I slowly started believing their story and I was getting sucked right into their idea of being that second wife. I didn’t know where this was leading to. I was trying to figure it out myself. Because by now Zia was in love with me and hurting him was the last thing on my mind.
Then about a month into the friendship/relationship Neema calls me. She says I have some great news. We are coming to visit you in the summer!
My blood ran cold just listening to her all excited about the impending trip. She had it all planned out. The details were mind boggling…
Tbc

Secret Diaries Of Him part4 

The next day while chatting on the phone to the wife she says oh Zia has just come home and continues to ask me would you like to chat to him. I’m like sure I’ll say hi. She calls to him to pick up the extension phone and soon I hear his voice. 
After exchanging pleasantries she tells him Rosie has agreed to be your second wife. Isn’t that great. You could tell he was embarrassed and a bit speechless. He said Rosie what’s going on. I replied she’s telling the truth she asked and I agreed. 
He sounded a little pissed. “Are you guys for real?” She says yeah it’s true what’s the problem. He hangs up and she and I started laughing. She tells me don’t worry about him I’ll sort him out. You know Rosie she says we are gonna have so much fun.  
Eventually I hung up thinking she can’t be serious. I had a good idea she was winding me up. But what if she wasn’t? 
Later on Zia calls me. Hes in his car and straight away asks me. Is this what you really want? Do you have feelings for me? I’m like yeah sure I do 🙄 like is he for real? He then surprises me by saying I like you too. In fact I like you a lot. 
Me being the idiot I am. Replies “well we are on the right track then aren’t we”
He said what about your parents. I told him that once I tell them this is what they will agree. He then says I’ll be happy to talk to them myself and show them you will want for nothing. I’m like yeah sure you can. Im family is gonna love you! (And your wife and your kids) 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 
She called later that day and said I’ve decided once you finish your studios ju 

He started phoning me a few times a day and we would chat away… We really did get on well and then one day just as he was hanging up he said
“I think im falling for you…”  

Secret Diaries Of Him part 3 

While chatting to his wife in box the interrogation was on. Who are you where are you from etc etc She said if you ever need anything just let me know ill send. I thought how sweet is she. She then says I really need someone like you. I’m thinking what does she mean by that, maybe she wants a mate. She’s lonely she’s bored. 
She insisted we chat on the phone and eventually we did. 
She was Pakistani and from back home. In the very first five minutes of the conversation she tells me I’m looking for a second wife for my husband. I’m like, why? She proceeded to tell me it’s because she doesn’t keep well and is unable to keep him happy. ( yeah it sounds bizarre and unreal but that’s what she said ) i replied ok good luck finding one. 
She asks me what do you think of him. Right I straight away saw where the convo was going and I decided to play along because I had a feeling she was just messing about. I said he’s nice good looking guy. Anyone would be lucky to have him. 
She says that’s great Rosie because I really like you and I think you would be great. I replied sure why not I think you’re awesome too. She says think of all the fun we would have shopping and going out. She said Zia is so gonna be jealous. I’m like yayyyy lets do this. (I know! I know! but I got caught up in the moment) 😳 
After I hung up I thought what an utter nutter and decided not to speak to either of them again. It was just too creepy. She was weird capital letters 🙄
Later that day Zia messages he wants to play poker again. During the game there’s part of the game I’m not getting and we both decide to chat on the phone so he can explain better. Plus I was curious to hear his voice. My earlier resolution to keep away from them was long forgotten. 
His voice was deep very soothing. He was also very well spoken, American born and a kicking accent to go with it. I liked him. 

Secret Diaries of Him (part 2) 

Friends requests were sent to him and a few people on his friends list. Next day it was accepted and with it a message. “Do you know our family or are you random?” I replied just random. I think we chatted a bit. 

He was married with some kids. No biggie it’s just chatting innit. He asked about me. I said I was at Dundee uni studying dentistry. Originally from Germany. (Oh shush! I just said what came into my head!) 
Later that evening I noticed he had unfriended me. I thought oh well that was short lived 😂 but that night he messages asking if I want to play Fb poker. I said sure but he had to add me again to play.  
While playing I noticed his wife was in the game too…. He said she’s sending you a request just add her. I’m like ok fine the more the merrier. Little did I know that I was gonna regret this later on. 
At some point she comes on my wall and very arrogantly claims my dp is fake. I told her to shut up and get lost. Turns out the pic I was using was some famous Pakistani actress 😳 how careless was I! (I’ve got smarter since then) 
Then she later comes into my inbox and starts chatting away and being extremely nice… And suggests we chat on the phone… Another mistake I’d live to regret… 
Tbc

Secret Diaries Of Him part 1 

Id made the fake account on Facebook to try and see if Raj was upto no good because lately he’d been distant and not talking much. Call it paranoia or wherever it was really starting to get to me. One should never do internet relationships but hell little did I know I was about to enter another that would consume the next five years of my life. 

The fake account was ready I’d called her Rosie and given her a very eye catching picture. She’d defo catch Raj’s eye once I’d put her in the right places. All I now needed was a few Fb buddies to make the account look real. 

I sent a few random requests and then one guy in particular caught my eye. He was American and the idea that he was in a different time zone seemed perfect. If we got chatting he’d be around when my other buddies weren’t late at night. It would mean I’d always have someone to chat to when I’m bored. Friend request sent to Nawaz Ahmed…. 

I’m back!

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Haven’t been on in a while as you guys will have noticed. Life just took a different direction. I also ended up in this Facebook group and ended up running it. Now I own my group which kinda keeps me busy too. I’m gonna be here more often because my head is full of so much stuff that I need to talk about.

Look out for my next blog post very soon ☺️

I am not Charlie

I am not Charlie and I won’t join a mass force and say I am. What he did was wrong but that doesn’t mean killing him and the others was ok. I don’t believe in killing innocent people over cartoons.

But it’s also not ok to insult nearly 2 billion people trying to take a stand. Us muslims let alone insult our own prophet we wouldn’t insult anybody’s prophet, father or mother.

Taking your anger hurt and pain out on on entire religion is bang out of order. There is never going to be complete freedom of speech and there never was. Who are you lot trying to kid

Im disgusted!