arjun rampal jaan leva

I love this song and video… talk about girl power LOL

And here it is with the English subtitles… 😛

The Highs and Lows

I really like this song… sadly I couldn’t find one with English subtitles…

I’ve had a really busy week with Eid and everything…  all in all it went really well. Had some good quality family time and managed to fit in a few visits and receive a few visitors.

One of my mates brought around a massive box of chocolates… can’t wait to dig into them.. maybe when we are watching something good at the weekend. Right now too stuffed to eat them.

I think festive occasions do make you think about those who are not with us anymore.. and it’s hard to try to get through these days sometimes. I think this year we coped reasonably well. The morning was bad but as the day wore on and the day started to get busy I think we managed to pick ourselves up and make an effort for each other.

You learn a lot as time goes on. The world never stops. It just keeps revolving round and round like a carousel. You look around and you see that others want to get on but are waiting for you as they don’t want to leave you behind. But they also don’t want to get on.. because they aren’t ready. Then one of you realises that an effort has to be made or the moment will pass and you will only end up blaming each other or worse your depression gets worse.

In mourning it becomes a battle of survival at times. Very often we are trying to save ourselves then we aren’ t and sometimes we are trying to save each other forgetting all about ourselves.

It sounds like a muddle I know and very often that’s how it feels up there in my head. You lose all sense of time and forget that there is a purpose to life. You do have to get up and move along. Move along as in your day and not sit in one place thinking or doing useless stuff that has no meaning or sense of purpose.

I very often sit and sit, doing nothing at all. I think that’s the day I get the most done. Emotionally and mentally because at the end I’m exhausted. It’s like I’ve done a full days work of hard labour. Which is quite funny because the place looks a tip and I’m too exhausted to do anything and so the day has passed.

There are good days too.. where is burst of energy and you just can’t stop because you are on such a high. I call them my good days, I feel great. There is the nagging thing in the back of my head tho, that while im flying today on such a rush and high, I know I will crash and I crash badly. I really hate it when that happens. It’s inevitable and there is nothing to avoid it, I’m on such a rush at those times I can’t even pace myself.

I think eventually I will figure it out, right now I don’t have a clue. Tomorrow I’m gonna be the smartest in town when I’m on that high again. Bring it on!!

X Factor: Sophie ousted in Kelly’s absence and Misha B stays.



X Factor Sophie voted off

Kelly Rowland might just be regretting jetting off to LA last week because in her absence, both Misha B and Sophie Habibis ended up singing for survival.

Despite the bullying storm swirling around Misha and the subsequent in-fighting between judges Kelly and Tulisa, Sunday’s X Factor sing-off was only going to end one way… with Sophie going home.

The 19-year-old did her best, singing The XX‘s Shelter in a bid to persuade the judges she deserved to stay. The problem is, slow ballads are all she’s done and sadly, it was more of the same in the sing-off, I really wish she had done something different! 😦

Misha B, on the other hand, has been all about big productions, big costumes and big hair so her stripped back version of the Kings of Leon‘s Use Somebody showed her versatility and a few tears towards the end showed her softer side ( amazing the well known bully has one! She scares me a bit )

As the judges deliberated, the girls’ mentor Kelly Rowland phoned in (using her very best sick voice… if you want to pretend you are sick… flippin try harder! She just kept going in and out of character! A few coughs in there might have sounded more authentic! ) and the decision to send Sophie home was unanimous. ( Bitch! )

Tho I really enjoy watching the Xfactor and I never vote… I just feel that this year something is missing… the buzz just isn’t there… and Kelly you had a responsibility and just like Simon you leave your acts and jet off leaving them vulnerable and alone. I really felt sorry for both girls this weekend and I wanted Sofie to stay… ( yeah I should have voted!  I know )

Misha B just doesn’t do it for me… I think you figured that one out 😛

Choli Ke Peeche Kya Hai – Khalnayak (1993)

Madhuri Dixit doing her stuff in the famous song from the film Khalnayak. She is one of the best and always will be.

This film was released in 1993 over 2 decades ago but still manages to get everyone going and brings back some great memories for many. 🙂

Suraj Hua Maddham-K3G Song Full [HD] (W/Eng Subs)

Wish to see the sun once again… been ages since I did…

Chammak challo (video song) ENGLISH SUBTITLES

Love this song… just can’t get it out of my head… and it’s SRK my fav…

This is going out  for all my blogger buddies… and HAPPY DIWALI to those who are celebrating…  🙂

I’m doing just fine.

There is nothing in this world that doesn’t remind me of you. There is always something.

A moment, a song, a person, just about anything and everything. It’s forgetting you when there is nothing to forget. People want to forget bad memories, bad moments, pain and heartbreak, but there is none of that here, not with you.

The memories are good ones and none I want to forget. Even the bad memories have become good memories.

Even the pain of losing you has slowly become a sweet welcome pain, anything to just feel something where you used to be. To take away the numbness and dullness I feel inside.

You once said to me… life goes on, no one and nothing stands still for anyone… you were so right.. life does go on but my heart is frozen in time. No one has waited for anyone but I still wait for you.  Just for that memory and face to fade away, which I know it never will.

I want you to know I’m doing fine and always will be. Life has taught me a lot and I’ve learned a lot too. I don’t want you to worry about me and think these tears never go away because there are times I miss you and want you. I don’t want these tears to stop because I’m afraid if they do I will stop missing you too.