Is it helping
The silence, The emptying
Of your soul
Does it feel good
The emptiness? The loneliness
Your heart so cold?
Do you ignore it? Or push it
To the back of your head
Or do you wish
Somewhere, all the feelings were
Gone from inside, dead.
When you wake up
In the morning and realise
I’m still here and so is she
Inside my head….
As I say good bye to each day
I die inside a little more
It’s another day since you
Took your love away
Never thought I could cry each day
Shed tears, my eyes so sore.
It’s another day I’m learning
To live with out you.
How do I learn not to
Love you no more
How do I learn
To not want you no more.
I close my eyes and wish
To not feel you no more
I close my eyes and wish
I was no more.
I wanna go back in time
Where you never were
It’s impossible going forward
Knowing you were there.
“I” and “You” are the veil
between heaven and earth.
Lift this veil and you’ll see
no longer the bonds of
Sects and Creeds.
When “I” and “You”
no longer exist:
What is a Mosque?
What is a Synagogue?
What’s the Temple of Hindus?
What’s the Church of Christ?
A silent tear falls
In quiet moments
As calmness falls
As disappoint leaves
There are no calls
Or loving messages
Only empty promises
Just an empty heart
And silent tears
It takes a lifetime to realize many things in life then there are times it takes a split second for everything to hit you smack bang in the face.
Yeah, I know I’ve been away a while but things have been hectic of the past months. A family member is not keeping well. So trips in and out of hospital are now an ongoing thing. I’d love to go into more detail and tell you guys more about it but she reads this blog sometimes so I really have to respect her privacy.
But the stress of it all is sometimes too much to bear and banging heads of walls is not helping either. We are at a stage in the treatment where nothing is working. Time and again we are ending up back to square one with the side effects of each drug taking it’s toll on her body and mind.
It’s amazing how isolated one can feel in an illness when the world is full of ill people. Our weekly trips to the hospital shows just how ill some people are and how worse off. It brings it home that we are lucky our situation isn’t as serious as some but it’s still a situation and we are dealing with it. So each day as it comes is what they always say.
Someone asked the other day how after everything I go through how do I manage to be so strong and keep positive. I guess like always, I’m just grateful for what is positive in my life and try to see the rest as a test.
Other than this dominating our lives at the moment there’s nothing really else to tell you guys.
Oh yeah just remembered the wonderful Facebook deactivated my account so had to make a new one. Please if you were added in my old one or wish to be added in my new account then drop me a request. Miss you all.. here’s the link http://www.facebook.com/aneesa.bashir.71
